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Blue

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I can’t do it


L ooking to my right
O n this bed we shared
V acant, I hang on by a thread
E rase the memories, but still I’d weep


Y ou remember the day we met?
O n a Sunday, pouring rain, soaking wet
U mbrella sheltering us, strangers both


C urious happening, chance gesture of kindness
A ll translated to a date, a chance to reciprocate
R uby heart and sapphire eyes, both warmed an old soul
R eminisce of a time I’d only known bliss, I was no longer alone
Y ou never told me your story, only listened to mine with a patient smile


M aybe if I’d asked, maybe you were too patient, or…
E xpectant of me to make the first move, you held the door…


T omorrow comes and your laughter still echoes
O n in my mind, and my heart pangs, twists and turns, I heave, for I no longer dare dream


T oo late you’re already gone
H owever this is not how it seems
E veryone has a bad day, I’m having it rougher than most because it’s through no fault of my own this lack of trust, of faith, I retaliate against this fate I’ve been dealt because no one else could walk these    miles alone. I’m so alone. We met, and were separated abruptly, awkwardly, heart shatteringly…


D on’t sympathize, more sadness all ‘round won’t bring him back
I t won’t change that he was hit by some twit whose eyes were just for show, lights on but nobody home, and just like that now he’s gone, too
S ome hand I’ve been dealt, I confess, but I regret nothing. I see my friends and my family all worrying about my seemingly dead eyes and fake smile
T he doubting of me is all the more insulting than navigating through old photos and clinging to phantom pains would be
A m I insane to carry on? It’s not like it was nothing, but I have to continue living for me, for us, for our children
N ever undermine my authority, Sorrow, I’ve got a thing for carrying burdens but his legacy isn’t one of them
T hose deep blue eyes I o’ so loved carry on too, they look at me daily when I bring ‘em to school, and they sparkle just like yours used to

S ometimes I still cry, when I think no one’s listening, or no one’s hearing
H onestly, it feels like I’m finally breaking. When I go to bed it all sinks in
O f course I can, say I, for if I don’t then who will, who will take care of our little babies
R est easy, I’m still standing, there’s no room for ill begotten maybes
E ven if I can’t take another step I’ll crawl, sprawled on the floor I’ll make sure those
S apphire eyes never cry, no twinkle from held back tears, I swear


O n our anniversary I buy those flowers from the usual shop
F lamboyantly display them because I know you would not have it any other way


T he saying goes to a better tomorrow
O nly hope is yours won’t be accompanied by so much sorrow
M aybe though, I’ll never know, I’m so sorry little Blue
O f all the times I can’t be there, but maybe now things will start to slow for you. As for me,
R everie, of you I’m letting go. I want only reality for you, Blue,
R emembering our time so vibrantly, that I’ll do. But you, you don’t have to, whatever you do, don’t cry… Or I’ll feel so mellow
O n a Sunday too to boot, shoot…
W ell, I mean, maybe it won’t be so bad. Maybe next time I’ll hold the door for you, Blue
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Hello there~ I came from :iconwriteandread:

The first thing that catches my eye is arrangement that formed sort of a hidden message :)  Makes this poem looks a little like like a riddle~  This also shows that you have planned this well before hand :D

After reading it... It got a good mix of both sadness and heart warming thought~  It nicely tell the feeling of individual that fell in love and then lost that person.  When you lost someone you truly love, it is no surprise you would be sad.  I like the happy thought at the end that 
this person was able to gather strength and resolve to move forward~  

There are some sentences that felt a little too long for a normal poem... But that's might be just my preference ~_~

To summarize... great work!